In her own words…

Jan
25
2012

My name is Priscillah Wairimu. I have decided to share my story with you because I think it is important those of you who read this to understand what it is like to live on the street here in Kenya. I am excited to be living with TJ and Lindsay because they have supported me for many years and I know God is using them here to do good things for the people in Kitale. When I go with them to visit the street kids here, I remember my experiences on the street in Nairobi and it makes me sad. I am so thankful to God that I have survived and that God has loved me so much to give me a chance to help other girls who are like I was many years ago. Many of these memories are still painful, but I am asking God to heal me of these things. I want to share my story with you so you can know the best way to help these children and people in the slums.  So, with God’s help, and Lindsay’s help writing, here is my story.

I am the eighth-born of nine children in my family. I am 24 years old. I am not sure my exact birthday because my mother did not know what exact day she gave birth to me. I grew up in Kibera slums in Nairobi, Kenya. My father used to work as an overnight guard at an Orthodox church and by day he drank alcohol and was always drunk. When he came home he would fight with my mother. My mom was always at home with us but struggled to care for us because she was always sick.

In Kibera, my home was about 10 feet by 8 feet big. The iron sheets that were used as a roof leaked when it rained so we would stuff plastic bags in the holes to keep it from dripping on us during the rainy season. We cooked over an open coal stove inside the house called a jiko. I remember being sick a lot with cough because of the cold and the ashes of the coal. All of us lived in there. My dad would cut paint cans in half, flatten them, and cover it with empty potato sacks and plastic bags for us to sleep on because he did not want us to sleep on the mud floor. We would change into rags to sleep in to try to keep our day clothes nicer. My mom’s bed was made of four plastic jerry cans, one for each corner and then we would lay a board on top of them and we would sleep on top of the board. Often times our beds were infested with bedbugs.

I started begging for food and money outside of my home when I was six years old.  My home was not a safe place for me to stay for many reasons.  Nobody was taking care of me and I was so hungry.  I started going from door to door in a wealthy neighborhood nearby.  When I was given food, I would save some and bring home to my family for them to eat.  I did this kind of begging for about 1 year.

I went to the streets of Nairobi begging for money and sniffing glue and using other drugs called bang (marijuana) and local alcohol when I was 7 years old.  I used glue and drugs because it helped me forget where I came from.  They also helped me forget about the conditions of the street.  When I would sleep on the street it was very cold.  The alcohol cost about 10 schillings and it helped me stay warm.  My parents never looked for me when I didn’t come at night.  The same is for today.  My parents do not know where I am and my mom has trouble remembering who I am when I visit her.

To get food, we would go and eat at hotels (restaurants) and we would dig in the garbage pits that were open behind the buildings and eat the leftovers that people would throw away.  Sometimes food we would collect would have phlegm and saliva on them so we would take the food and put in tins and boil it to try to clean it.

When I lived on the street, it gave me very low self esteem.  I lived a life where I didn’t care what would happen to me.  When I begged and dug in the rubbish, I felt like I belonged to the street.  When I would go back to my home in Kibera, I felt like there was no God who loved me.

There were big boys that lived on the street that would harass me and my friends.  There were also many men that would drive in their cars and look for street girls and they wanted to abuse us or ask us to hold their private parts and then would give us money.   I didn’t have a mother who could protect me and bring me up to show and teach me that these things were wrong.  Even in my heart I knew they were wrong.

There were the big boys on the street that would bully the younger kids on the street.  Some days I would receive much money and food.  God has protected me on the street because I never lacked.  At the end of the day, I would find a street kid who lacked for the day-who did not get anything to eat or money that day.  I would give half of the money or food I received that day to that kid.  The big boys left me alone because they knew me as a street girl that shared much with others.

Some nights I would sleep in booths in the market where they sell clothes.  We would move to different booths each night because there were men with canes that would come and beat us if they found us sleeping in those places.  One night I remember there was a big man who chased me through the streets all night because he wanted sex from me.  I was not able to sleep until the next night because I feared him so much.  To this day I have nightmares about trying to escape him.

At times, I would go back to my home in Kibera to check in.   My mom would not know who I was because of her illness.  She would easily get lost, even today she easily becomes lost.  Some of the money I would get from begging I would buy shoes for her and other things.  I love her very much.

 To feel that hungry you feel like you want to die.  I told God that He was not for real if He allowed me to go through such suffering.

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From Lindsay:

This is the first of many posts from Priscillah.  Her story is unique to her, but undoubtedly so common to hear in many others who live here.  I hope these posts from her encourge you where you are at in your faith and rejoice with us in her story containing so much hope and redemption.

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the day our house doubled, part 2

Jan
24
2012

continuing from here.

Milla and Tabi enter our home, shaking from malnutrition and dehydration, coughing horribly, and wondering where they are.  We sit them down at our dining room table and they drink some water and look at us, seeing that we were familiar but unsure of what is next.

Weighing them showed they were each at 22 pounds.  Skin and bones and distended bellies, Milla was by far in worse condition.  At ages 6 and almost 4, they were so small for their ages, I wondered how on earth they had survived this long.  The stench from them could be smelled from across our home.  They could barely walk and easily fell down if they became unbalanced. 

Priscilla bathed the girls and started treating their jiggers.  Jiggers are so painful to remove, leaving gaping holes in their feet, but we found that soaking their feet in hydrogen peroxide and water twice a day painlessly killed them.  Praise God.

We took them to the hospital and we were thankful to see clear chest x-rays and confirm that they did not have TB or pneumonia.  The coughing that kept them up at night was a result of exposure to toxins given off by the indoor charcoal stove their mom would cook with when she had food

It’s been almost 2 weeks now, and what a noticeable difference it has been. Both have gained well over 1 kg and seem to be thriving.  We have watched them transform into to happy, giddy, twirling, energetic, little girls.  We keep their routine simple at home and the same every day. They eat very traditionally because the plan is for them to return to their mom, in about a month.  They play with babydolls, and help wash their little clothes and color inside coloring books filled with Bible stories that open conversations about Jesus and how BIG He really is.  We spend time holding them, whispering how much they are loved in their little ears and have them visit their mom twice a week to ensure they are staying connected.

I have prayed my heart out for these two little lives.  I sing “This Little Light of Mine” to them daily and they are starting to catch the tune.  I see them as being little lights in their home.  A story of redemption and healing.  Their mother loves them, but struggles in caring for them and providing food for them because she has nothing.  Nothing.  I do not know the feeling of not having the ability to feed my children.

Today, I have the pitter patter of 12 feet come running down the hall in the morning.  6 cups to fill with chai or uji for breakfast.  God truly has given us the strength to meet all the needs of our children and the ones we are fostering, for now.  Our children have been amazing in welcoming them into our home, sharing their toys and eating more African food than they probably care to.  They have never complained and we are praising God for this provision.

Milla and Tabi are very opposite in personalities and it has been fun seeing that develop the past couple of weeks.  Both need a lot of supervision and it has been a process of teaching them skills they have not learned, or practiced, due to lack of supervision and the conditions of Kipsongo.  I’m thankful they are potty trained and I’ve only had to tell them 1 million times to only flush the toilet once.  It’s almost guaranteed that if we cannot find Tabi, she is standing over the toilet, watching it flush or climbing trees in the backyard with the boys.  Milla is usually found grooming baby dolls and trying on all of my daughter’s clothing, shoes and accessories.  Yes, divas know no culture.

 

This experience has grown us in ways we never knew we could.  God is doing something in Kipsongo and we are very excited in the days ahead to share with you what God has laid on our hearts.

 

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…the day my household doubled.

Jan
22
2012

The day was hot and steaming.  Priscilla and I were headed to Kipsongo to continue to build relationships with women there.  We were greeted by familiar voices and faces and the stench of the slum hit us yet again. 

When I go into Kipsongo now, the layers of what life is there peels itself away.  I am no  longer shocked by the men sleeping on mats, the homes made of garbage bags, or the phrases yelled out to us by people who assume we are there to give handouts.  What shocks me now is seeing the same baby day after day walking around naked, unsupervised, tripping and falling into the sewage stream.  What shocks me is seeing the little toes of the children who live there being eaten alive by jiggers.  What shocks me is hearing the cries of a woman being raped by a man and nobody seems to care, or be willing to do anything about it.  The oppression and dominance that men have here is appauling.  Women are beaten for any reason at all and do not have a voice.

This particular day, Priscilla and I are meeting with Selina.  Selina is the mom to Tabitha and Maximilla.  She is telling us that the walls on her house are caving in.  We have heard this before and today the sight of her home made me sick.  Her and the babies that stay with her at night are completely exposed to the outside due to large, gaping holes in two of the four walls.  Selina asks me twice for food.  She has never asked me for anything in the 3 months I have known her, but this day, she asked me twice.  Her gait was extremely unstable and we noticed Maximilla and Tabitha had very low energy, which was unlike them.

I went home that night and could not sleep.  The images and sounds of that day haunted me and I was up much of the night asking God why He had brought us here, as we were just 2 people and the needs in Kipsongo were so great.  I woke up with Psalms 34 on my heart.  God poured into my soul that I was not here to save everyone.  God hears my cries and answers them.  I know God knows our hearts here and He knows the need.  I’m expecting miracles :)

The next day I spoke with Priscilla about how we can help this family.  I certainly didn’t want to become the next white person who walks into Kipsongo and starts giving handouts.  Priscilla stated “well, the thing to do is bring them into our home and get these girls healthy again”.  Of course she said that.  In my mind, I was thinking about our household already, with our crazy kids, Priscilla and Daniel already here AND we had just moved into our home and had barely finished unpacking.  No way was I ready or prepared to take on two malnurished children with unknown health needs.

As it turned out, we had a family meeting and discussed the rules and boundaries this situation would require.  When we all agreed we wanted to help this family, Priscilla trotted to Kipsongo that day to speak to Selina about helping her with her children.  Selina was so relieved and stated that she and the girls had not had a bite to eat for 2 days.  Priscilla returned a few hours later with 2 little girls, scared out of their minds.

Their house, that day, had completely collapsed.

More to come….

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Home.

Jan
19
2012

This month we have had a lot of changes.  Some have been hard to embrace, most have been a welcome change, one being our new home!

We live in a wild orange-colored house in the same neighborhood we lived in before, just about a mile or so down the road and around the corner.  There are no street signs here, so getting directions to anywhere is a conversation that usually gives us a big laugh. 

We are thrilled with our cozy home.  There is color on the walls, a fireplace and enough bedrooms to hold all of us, and then some…which will be an entirely different post.   We have a small veranda that we can see the sunrise from, and it glows a bright orange for about an hour every morning.  It’s the perfect spot to harass the people walking by have a hot cup of coffee in the morning.  It’s perfect and more than what our family needs.  It is also in a quieter part of the neighborhood.  If you have seen on facebook the stories of the crazy microphone man who used to plague our nights with noise and the same 3 chords on a ‘keyboard’ all night, you know how much we appreciate a quieter space. 

Instead of microphone man, we have chickens and stray cats that roam around our yard, and several fruit trees providing a canopy over a garden (shamba) we hope to grow in the near future.  We have a yard where the kids can play soccer and we can set up our slack line. 

We pray that this house will be a place that can be used for many different purposes.  I know God has a plan.

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Hope

Jan
18
2012

I have had a very long, unvoluntary break from the internet due to typical Kenya power/phoneline-stealing crooks.  It was a break I had no idea I needed, but it feels great to be back.  I have so much to share, I can barely type fast enough or keep my thoughts straight.  God has been so sweet in his patience with our family as we transition and try to find our place here in Kitale.

To start, what I am constantly learning is that God is good-no matter what.  God’s pace is always perfect and I’m so thankful he chooses to use broken, dirty, imperfect people like me, like our family, to Glorify Himself through us.  I am humbled by all that we have been given here- the opportunity to live in a country that has such drastic contradictions of wealth and poverty, to share HOPE and Truth to the people of Kenya who so desperately need hope.

You remember me talking about Priscilla some time ago.  Priscilla has been in our lives since 2002, when I started sponsoring her, the first time I came to Kenya.  In 2003, my then-boyfriend, now-husband, met her and we knew after spending time in LTK that she would always hold a special place in our hearts.  Fast forward 10 years to today.  Priscilla is living with us along with her 2 yr old son, Daniel.  It’s been a beautiful picture unfolding.  Seeing her as a grown woman now, a mother, and not a child anymore.  She is a wonderful, responsible mom and a very hard worker.  She found a job 3 days after she moved to Kitale washing clothes at a local guesthouse.  She wakes up everyday and is out the door by 7am, happy as a lark, and returns home the same.  She loves Jesus with every fiber of her being and her joy is contagious.  Having her son, Daniel in our home has forced us to quickly learn basic Swahili.  He is a bubbly, snarky, sensative 2 yr old boy.  He loves his mom.  He loves cars, crayons, soccer balls, new clothes, and mud.  He fits right into our family and we have seen him grow leaps and bounds physically since being here.

Priscilla has a deep passion to reach out to the other single moms who live here.  Priscilla will be sharing some of her personal stories here in the near future, because she wants you to know what it is like to live in the slums in Nairobi, be a child who used to live on the streets and be a single mom in Kenya.  I took her to Kipsongo a couple of months ago to introduce her to Sarah, Selina, and Maximilla and Tabitha.  Her heart broke as it brought back many painful memories of what her childhood was like.  Through discipleship, prayer, and lots of time in God’s word, Priscilla has found healing and joy in many areas of her life that were so, so painful.

Priscilla has shown such grace and dignity and love to people she barely knows-such as Sarah, whom she met just weeks before her death, and attended Sarah’s funeral to ensure that she had a proper burial and all was well and nothing was taken advantage of.  Priscilla has always lived with the moto “give 1/2 away” and continues to give 1/2 of everything she earns away to someone less fortunate than her.

I could go on and on.  I cannot wait for you to get to know her more here.  She has many stories of healing and redemption that will bring you into rejoicing to see what God can do.

With God, ALL things are possible, even in your life.

Stay tuned!

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